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Almost 3am now...
Can't sleep...


Nite...
Used to sleep late at nite...


But as the day comes nite...
So does the vanity...


Thinks a lot dat time....
But most of them are unwise thoughts...


Being honest ain't a part of me...
Act like I don't when I do...


I'll never break through that...
That is my nature maybe...


Suffer me a lot...


Since when I've lost trust to people...
Since when I've lost the ability to accept...
Since when I've learned to lie...
Since when I've learned to laugh when I'm not...


These thoughts filled me...
I can't get rid of them...


Smile =)...
How long I didn't smile when I mean it...


Used that symbol frequently...
Saw that symbol frequently...


Did they meant it when using it...?
That symbol can delight a person maybe...


Not me...

Sleep late these few days...
Feel like reborn after work...


Dunno why...
Maybe it's been a habit to me....


Maybe I'm addicted...
But I very vivid what I'm want...


Although it's bad...
But it's our nature...


What I'm lack of...
I''m seems to born without it...


Being annoying sometimes....
But I just can't help it...


Like I said...


I've tried to fix it...
But all I do is add more weigh to it...


Should I stop...??
Should I put an end to it...??


Sometimes you'll do something when you're desperate...
Maybe I am...


What I'm doing now is just to satisfied my hunger...
Not what I've been seeking...


Kinda pathetic am I...??
What I've done may hurt others...


But I just can't help it...
human nature is an horrible thing...


If you can't control it...
You're a failure sooner or later...


Surpass it...
Hope I can...

Kittens =)

I woke up 2pm today...
Damn dulan coz need to work at 4pm...

But something delight my day...
Suddenly I notice the pregnant cat that always live at my house seems skinner...

I was wondering that she had birth her kittens...
Suddenly saw 3 kittens at my pc box....

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Love animals...

They're cute...
Have a look at those kittens....>>>

I like the bottom one most...
They're adorable aren't they...

So glad to see them after work...=)
Hope they'll stay here long enough...

Back...

Didn't blog quite a while...
Became quite lazy last few months...


Donated blood this semester...
Better than first time of course...

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Started to work recently...
The tiredness of study and working i bet you can't even picture it...


4pm till 2am...
4 days 8am class in the morning...


Work for 10 hours...
Sleep for 5 hours...
Class for 4-6 hours...


My mum didn't know bout that...
I bet she find out soon or later...


Going to be 19 years old next month...
Responsibility become vivid over time...


Trying to act like an adult...
But...Can I...?

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Not everything is as it seems...


I tried to fix it...
But all I do is add more weight to it...


Can't stand it...
But do I have a choice...?

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Talk less recently...
The people I can share are getting lesser and lesser...


Nothing last forever....
Face it...

It was an exhausted month...
6 hours sleep per day...


While having sufficient of slumber...
Vanity came by...


Began to cogitate why...how...
But still cant figure it out...


Maybe is my instinct...
That's why things can never be change...


I know what I'm lacking in...
But I just can't help it...


Human ain't live in the past...
Do what you could it's enough...( From 一公升的眼泪 )

Dilemma...

You Can Over Deliver , Under Promise...
But Never Over Promise , Under Deliver...


It's Our Human Nature To Promise Someone For Something...
But If One Failed To Achieved...That Makes Him/She Become A Liar...


I Believe Most Of Us Are Inside A Box...
A Box Is Filled With Fixed Thoughts...


These Fixed Thoughts Ensure Us Not To Cross The Line...


Since We're Kid...
Our Thinking Are Fixed...


How Can We Know What Is Good If We Don't Know Anything About Bad...???


Things Can Be Very Easy Sometimes...
But The World Is Ain't That Simple...


If All Of Us Try To Break The Box...
The Equilibrium Will Collapse...


It Is A Dilemma....
There Is No Absolutely Wrong Or Right...


Remember...The Choice Is Always Ours...
Never Ever Force It To Anyone...Include Yourselves...

Bloody Final...

I used to be proud to say I was...


But now...
It makes me become a liar...


It's fair enough...
I'm natural maybe...


Two more weeks...
The bloody final will be my final shot...


But I still ain't got that will to study...
Distraction...Procrastination...


When the hell I'll start focus...
Kinda suicide...Haiz...